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I woke up this morning and decided to weigh myself since I hadn’t in almost a week and a half.  I wasn’t surprised though to see that I am back up to 149.  I was just doing so good like a week ago and within that week I allowed myself to go back to my old habits but seeing those numbers go back up just motivated me to start kicking my own self in the butt again.  I still have lost six pounds but i was so close to my ten pounds that I was aiming for.  I went and ran/walked three miles today and have really been watching what I eat today.  I have learned that I have to make sure that I stay with it or I let myself get sidetracked and back to my old habits.  Weighing myself every day and logging on here really helps me stay on track.  I have also noticed that when I share my weight with someone every day whether it be my boyfriend or my best friend it makes me stay more committed to what I am doing..I guess it is the embarrassment of being like YAY I lost a pound one day to two days later being like yeah I gained three more pounds back today.  I just have to keep keeping on.  My boyfriend and I were looking at engagement rings the other day and it just made me see that I need to start now to be able to be at my goal weight when we do decide to get married.  I still have 24 pounds to go til I get to that goal weight but I am going to make it and I’m going to do it the right way.. making a lifestyle change and not just doing it for now.  Good luck everyone and for anyone that read this sorry if it bored you and I said the same thing over and over. lol. I just needed to vent. 

I bought a digital scale today and it has motivated me alot!  I only have 27.4 pounds to go until my goal weight and 2.4 pounds until I reach my mini goal of 150.  These mini goals really seem to motivate me..just a little bit at a time.  I can already tell them that I’m not making food the center point of my whole day and that feels so good.  Normally, all I would think about was what I was going to eat next or what fast food I wanted that day but now I am trying to wait until my stomach actually growls before I start thinking about food.  I’m also trying to drink more water (I’ve found I like Powerade Zero a little better) I am trying to cut out the cokes even the diet ones.  I hope everyone is doing well and I wish the best to everyone. 

Well, I am in desperate need of trying to find something that will help me gain control over my weight.  I never thought that I would fall victim to the freshman fifteen but Thursday I looked in the mirror and I promise I almost cried.  I am young and I want to have the confidence to do the things that other girls my age are doing.  I don’t want to have to be too insecure to wear a bathing suit at the beach or being afraid of someone seeing my stomach if we go out on the boat this summer.  I want to be able to wear the cute clothes with them clinging too tight to my stomach or showing off the cellulite on my legs.  I don’t want to have to panic if the guy I’m dating attempts to pick me up.  This has been a huge deal to me ever since I dated this one guy and we were just playing around and he attempted to pick me up and bless his heart he managed to pick me up off the ground but I could tell his arms were shaking.  Needless to say, he didn’t try that again.  I was so ashamed and felt so disgusting.  More than anything though I miss having the energy that I used to have when I was fit.  I didn’t have to worry about getting out of breath just walking up the stairs like I do now.  I knew that I could be active if I wanted to and it felt good to feel healthy.  My only problem now is making the time to go to the gym and how to cut out the fast food that has become a part of my daily routine.  I want to make a plan and stick to it.  I know that I have self control and I can beat this problem.  I want to stop it now before it gets any worse.  Today I am feeling very determined.  I did slip up and eat a breakfast burrito from Sonic this morning.  I seriously don’t want to even imagine the amount of calories I took in with that stupid thing.  I am not going to let it ruin how I eat the rest of the day though.  I just have to keep my head on straight.  I really want those sour cream and onion chips that are sitting back there though and they are tempting me.  I think I am just going to chew a piece of gum instead.  I am stronger than these cravings.

I didnt realize that I signed up with this website in April.  Needless to say I havent been doing the diet thing and that has resulted in me gaining a wonderful ten pounds.  This time I am sticking to it though.  I am cutting my caloric intake and going to stop eating past 7 oclock.  I am so excited about doing this.  I have 59 days until we go to Gatlinburg and I would love to weigh 130 by the time we went.  I dont know if it is possible to lose 25 pounds by then but I know that it is possible to lose 10 at least and that would make me feel ten times better.  Wish me luck.  Gosh I just want to feel sexii and be looking good.  I would love to be able to not be self conscious when I went I put on my bathing suit and got in the hot tub.  Jayme, Manda, and I are going to the fat doctor here in a couple of weeks and I’m hoping that will be a great aid to the process.  I also found this type of detox diet that will help you lose like 5-10 pounds in a week so I am going to try it next week.  I was thinking I could do that once a month between now and Gatlinburg and lose 20 pounds.  I just want Michael to be able to look at me and say DANG that is my girlfriend and I am a very very lucky man. Wish me luck though cause Lord knows I am going to need it.